If so, you're in good company. The prophets of Israel often showed schizoid tendencies.
Hopefully your condition is under the control of the Holy Spirit by whatever means the Lord has given that works for you.
Click on the link above to read an article by Gary DeMar which critiques a less than healthy theology which advocates care for creation and then presumes to suggest that The Lord's imminent return excuses us from strenuous activity in the realms of social and ecological justice.
JESUS is both our Salvation and our Judge,
and HE is NOT schizophrenic.
